...success... is not to run after a myth or get attached

leaving things incomplete

Well in Life I have learnt a lesson.. never leave things incomplete whether they are good bad or ugly..

Money pulls money

Hi.. doesnt money pull money.. and luck pull luck

Barclays...out of control

Last eveing i have been involved in two things related to Barclays..
One becose of opening an account and two becose i am so looking forward to you know what..
i find it difficult to believe sometimes that even in a progessive city like..London can have its own small town problems..
i want to see when people say they that this is a big city and that it is the commercial city of the world where is it like that..
where is it hidden..
where is it.. i have not been able to see the same..for last one year.. and i cannot understand when will i see it...
what is the way to succeed here .. i think to myself.. should i start focussing on my energies that i need to get closer.. closer still..

RULE NO2. ONLY FOCUS YOUR ENERGIES ON THOSE THINGS THAT GET YOU CLOSER TO YOUR GOALS..

Caught becose of my tongue..

i have realised that not only half of my problems but the whole problem of my life has germinated if there is a word LIKE THAT from my tongue.. it never knows what to do.. when to speak what to speak and why to speak also what to eat when to eat and what not to eat...
can i not then somehow control this and learn to live happy as a new way of life..
i know that i am truthul, innocent girl then why should a silly remark me endanger my life or even my moral character..
i know i am not like that.. i have accepted everything that came my way... why then cant i get beyond this stage.. why do all my cars come to a standstill on this juncture...
i have decided that since this is stopping me from being successful i am going to eliminate this as one cause of my let down..the big word temptation to speak.. temptation to be heard.. no i dont want to speak i dont want to be heard..and i dont want to be spoken to even though i know i am going to... im going to for few days stop all people interaction and clearly focus on what are my goals.. maybe thats the way to success for me..

CUT ALL PEOPLE INTERACTION FOR SOMETIME TILL REALLY NECESSARY..

I wonder how Dinesh is telling me all the things that i knew long time back but i have never been able to put them to practise..i feel sorry that i have to make him go through this suffering to make me learn my lessons of life..
i want to say so much to him that he has helped me through this trials and turbulations of my life..but i cant get across to him..
maybe some day there would be some way to find out how..to get through...
but i will never stop trying..
SO RULE NO 1. CONTROL YOUR TONGUE OR ELSE SOMEONE ELSE WILL CONTROL YOUR SUCCESS

Till the time i live

Till the time i live i am going to keep remind myself that i will have to succeed and make my dreams come true..
Those are not the ones which are the unachievable ones so I am going to try and own an aston martin....
i will get all that i want.. everything ... ..
i dont know how..that how is what i need to investigate and pray for...

Parahamans Yogananda says that prayers are like signals that you send out in this universe and if u do send the correct signal you will get what you want from the same lord at least that what befits you...
I am sure an Aston Martin befits me..

But i have decided to not live like a popper but die rich... i dont want to die poor and in misery thats the worst than living a poor life.. u leave everybody behind even more unhappy.... how should i then prove that i am worth something before i die..

Life is changing fast but not fast enough

Life is changing very quick when the deterioration has started cannot be diagnosed at the moment..
i am sinking and sinking deep into something i cannot see myself.. but am i prepared to give into this situatuion ..put my hands up and say i give up when i know i havent tried enough to say yes i have tried everything... i rebuke my mind as in my mind i have made a 1000 million plans with each passing second and with each passing second either extinguished it or thrown it in some corner that i am going to take time to find it..

why have things begun to hurt me so much.. why should they when i know i havent tried..

i stand on the busstop each day for Bus No 183. and each time i look at a BMW convertible i tell myself that o common at least i have been lucky with cars if not men or my job..
i sometimes wonder was i born lucky and ensured that i ruined each bit of my chance to live this complete life that i am looking for..

Counting days to success

I have started to put this down as notes to myself as I want to keep reminiding myself that success has to come for sure.. there is no way that life can be so incomplete for me.. if its not about achieveing alone then it has to be to reach where i have to..
sometimes life teaches us many lessons..
they are about not just achieveing achieving achieveing.. there are some who are losers but they dont give up...
i dont know figures ..
but when they say u r one in a million.. where does the million come from..
who are those million.. and the chances of them still being the million and not the
one in a million are too much..
that they get selected in becoming amongs the million..
every single day of their lives they wake up thinking yes maybe today will be my day and I will achieve I might become just the one that they select..
that they give a chance to...but by the end of the day they stay where they are..

i was never as a child a one in the million child or a daughter.. more than having a lot of friends there were none to even talk to... sharing my lil joys of finding something on the roadside.. or the joy of seeing the bus go around on its wheels..
life was all about sounding funny and rhyme my words..
i used to see so many of them standing and going up on the stage to get certificates on the stage and i concentrated on hard i could clap my hands that it would sound
different.. the joy of being heard as the one who could clap the best..
when people grow up they talk about priorities.. who decides a childs priorities..

i am going to be 35 and i still feel so similar about clapping my hands..